My Last day
02/05/08 20:29 Filed in: Misc
So my last day at my current job. What's next for me?
What's next for me? In short I have no idea.
It's really strange for me this, I've always like predictably and consistency. I liked knowing that this Friday would be basically the same as last Friday, but of course this Friday wasn't. It was the day I was finally made redundant.
The last two weeks have been really hard on me. The announcement was made on Monday 21st and I knew it was me that was going on 28th and Today was my last day. In that time I've gone through anger, grief, depression, acceptance, resignation and I think I'm now at cautious optimism, with maybe a bit of worry.
While, I wouldn't describe my last few months at the company my best time, overall I have been very happy there.
In my 7 years there, I did 3,4,5...I lose count of the different job titles I've had. I've had the chance to work with some great people, I've even achieved a dream, to work as a professional developer, okay that dream turned out not to be quite what I expected, but if I had never achieved it, I wouldn't know that it's not really for me.
It was time to move, time for a change and doing it this way, gives me two important things, 1 a nice cash sum to keep me going for a good few months and more importantly, motivation for me. If I hadn't been made redundant, I would have probably grinned and borne my current situation and never done anything about it, simply because, thats the kind of guy I am. I don't like change. I know often it's for the better, but I still don't like it. With me be made redundant I know I have to make that change, I don't get a choice.
But a change to what? That is the question currently. And I don't know the answer.
I think I really need to stay in some sort if IT field, just because, that's where I have the experience so that is where I hope I get a similar amount of money to my old wage. But maybe that's me just playing it safe again. Maybe I should go for a radical change and take the pay cut? If I can just get enough to live I could take my life in a totally different direction.
This is what worries me at the moment, I don't know where I will be in a months time, but I guess this is the real situation I was in before, but the reality of things was hidden behind the fog of familiarity. Today will be the same as yesterday, because the day before was the same to. The world is not always like that, a lot of the time it is, but we do get fooled in to thinking it's always like that.
So Tuesday morning (Monday is a bank holiday in the UK), I will be job hunting, but I just don't know what sort of job it will be yet.
That is both exciting and worrying to me (so you can bet there will be a lot of posts here, in the next few weeks!)
It's really strange for me this, I've always like predictably and consistency. I liked knowing that this Friday would be basically the same as last Friday, but of course this Friday wasn't. It was the day I was finally made redundant.
The last two weeks have been really hard on me. The announcement was made on Monday 21st and I knew it was me that was going on 28th and Today was my last day. In that time I've gone through anger, grief, depression, acceptance, resignation and I think I'm now at cautious optimism, with maybe a bit of worry.
While, I wouldn't describe my last few months at the company my best time, overall I have been very happy there.
In my 7 years there, I did 3,4,5...I lose count of the different job titles I've had. I've had the chance to work with some great people, I've even achieved a dream, to work as a professional developer, okay that dream turned out not to be quite what I expected, but if I had never achieved it, I wouldn't know that it's not really for me.
It was time to move, time for a change and doing it this way, gives me two important things, 1 a nice cash sum to keep me going for a good few months and more importantly, motivation for me. If I hadn't been made redundant, I would have probably grinned and borne my current situation and never done anything about it, simply because, thats the kind of guy I am. I don't like change. I know often it's for the better, but I still don't like it. With me be made redundant I know I have to make that change, I don't get a choice.
But a change to what? That is the question currently. And I don't know the answer.
I think I really need to stay in some sort if IT field, just because, that's where I have the experience so that is where I hope I get a similar amount of money to my old wage. But maybe that's me just playing it safe again. Maybe I should go for a radical change and take the pay cut? If I can just get enough to live I could take my life in a totally different direction.
This is what worries me at the moment, I don't know where I will be in a months time, but I guess this is the real situation I was in before, but the reality of things was hidden behind the fog of familiarity. Today will be the same as yesterday, because the day before was the same to. The world is not always like that, a lot of the time it is, but we do get fooled in to thinking it's always like that.
So Tuesday morning (Monday is a bank holiday in the UK), I will be job hunting, but I just don't know what sort of job it will be yet.
That is both exciting and worrying to me (so you can bet there will be a lot of posts here, in the next few weeks!)
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